The Draft Posts

What didn’t get published

I just realised that I have half a dozen unpublished drafts lingering in my drafts box. These I had started before the UK lock down and consisted of places I had been, events I had attended and photos I wanted to share.

These were put together in February/early March, which in reality isn’t that long ago. Yet for some reason I feel awkward finishing these posts or publishing them. In fact I find it hard to look at my holiday photos or souvenirs from my trip in January. It’s almost as though normality feels like it has been banned and looking back at what we have done, where we could go and what we could do feels forbidden or painful.

A lot has changed in three weeks. I’m an obsessive traveller and explorer. I create lists of places to go, exhibitions to attend and regular events I enjoy. I have a vast collection of tickets which are either cancelled or postponed and yet I have not been further than a mile from home.

I want to shed off this uncomfortable sensation by enjoying what I’ve done, instead of mourning what could have been. I want to look at my photos and rejoice that I’ve done that… Without guilt or sadness.

For the future is unknown territory and no one saw this coming. Even the psychics and clairvoyants. So there is no shame in being content with achievements. There will be more things to explore in the future and for now, I’m embracing crafts and DIY and sometimes, just sometimes… Trying to learn how to rest!