For the first time, in a long time, I’m actually writing fiction again and I’m happy with it. It doesn’t feel forced or uncomfortable, words and ideas are flowing together nicely in a fresh start with new ideas based on two old ideas merged together to create a Fantasy Dreamscape Landscape.
It’s too early to post on the blog yet, as it is currently nothing more than a few scribbled notes, an introduction and memories of a series of surreal dreams. So this really could go anywhere right now.
I have to admit that it’s nice to be able to focus on something more than endless brain vomit, that recycles the same churning thoughts, until you feel like you are trapped inside a hurricane of emotions, endless words and churning thoughts. (welcome to my world) To put all that chaos into a project, where I can focus my distracted mind, might actually help create some order in the rest of my life too (she says hopefully) Not too much order though – I like a little chaos and order can be too regimented for my liking.
Each week I get a little time at the local lending library and having this time, surrounded by quiet, surrounded by books. Ideas and inspiration from the past. hobbies – interests, music and comics… Appears to have awaken something I felt was slumbering inside my soul. Perhaps it’s the ability to have an hour or two each week away from everything else and find time to develop a few ideas – above and beyond what needs doing, what I want to do and what I have to do… Because it gives me ‘mind’ time instead of ‘action’.
So ideas are there, under all those layers of chores and finding time to focus (for me) is the key, she says hopefully. (again).