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*How all very Post-Apocalyptic!*

 

 

Anne Harrison 28.07.17

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Waiting for 6pm

When you’re ridiculously early to the pub and this comes across your Tumblr page… Suddenly  personal entertainment!

Get to know me better!

General Info:
♡ Gender: Female
♡ Sexuality: Straight
♡ Height: Short and Compact 
♡ Hair Colour: Pink and Purple and Green and Blue and Silver and Blonde and Turquoise.. 
♡ Relationship Status: Happy

Favourite Things:
♡ favourite colour: Pink 
♡ favourite song: Kaleo  “Way Down We Go” (currently)
♡ favourite band / artist: Combichrist 
♡ favourite youtubers: Mainly watch Movie trailers 
♡ favourite food: fruit or cake or cheese 
♡ favourite family member: Dad and our fluffy family 
♡ favourite bird: Potoo or Shoebill 
♡ favourite animal: Aye-Aye, Capybara and Pangolins
♡ favourite celebrity: (deceased) Charlie Chaplain or Houdini 
♡ favourite time of day? Morning 
♡ favourite holiday(s): Japan – Malta – Russia 
♡ favourite season: why not all? 
♡ favourite fruit: Strawberry 
♡ favourite flower: Sweet Williams
♡ favourite emoji(s): meh… twinkling heart?! (most used)
♡ favourite app: Duolingo or Memrize 
♡ favourite hobby: Writing – Pretending to paint – Cinema – Events 
♡ favourite country: Home
♡ favourite weather: Any really…  
♡ favourite element: Kryptonite 
♡ favourite language: English 

name of:
♡ name of your crush: Happy
♡ name of your pet(s): Jazzy and Joy 
♡ name(s) of your best friend(s): everyone I love x 

this or that?
♡ introvert or extrovert: equal measures 
♡ nerdy or sassy: yes
♡ tall or short: either 
♡ looks or personality: both
♡ homesick or traveller: travelling 
♡ musician or artist: artist 
♡ woods or city: city 
♡ tv or youtube: youtube 
♡ phone or computer: tablet 
♡ family or money: family 
♡ books or movies: books 
♡ food or sleep: sleep 


… Would be really interesting to revisit this list in a years time, send myself a blank copy for July 2018 … fill it in and then compare my answers, see how my life changes in a year?! … Now how do I send this to my future self?

 

Anne Harrison   28.07.17

Now What?

*Personal Blog*

I actually really very nearly asked Google ‘how to relax’
All my chores are up to date, laundry, cleaning and the unpleasant task of doing the loo! (a weekly must on boat life) I don’t need to go shopping. It’s raining, so I can’t decorate outside. I could carry on with the sanding and varnishing inside. I could…

Or I could try something unique for me… Relaxing…
Chill out, without being exhausted. Nibble crisps, without feeling guilty.
Watch a movie from beginning to end without jumping up every few scenes to do something (that usually could wait) Even the cats are out!

So how do I relax?

I have the whole day to myself, for myself. Which is unique, I feel happy about this fact instead of frustrated. I might even try this ‘binge watching’ thingy… I brought the dvd box set of Taboo weeks ago and not had the time to watch a single episode yet… That could be a good way to relax…

I wonder why I find it so hard to do nothing?
Why I’m always filling my life with ‘things to do’
Some would say that I’m trying to hide from issues.
In reality, the truth is far more simple. 

I feel that I have already wasted too much of my life in front of the ‘Simpsons’ and channel hopping for hours, throwing wine down my neck to relieve the boredom of an unhappy life.
I have watched my Grandmother and then in turn my Mother both become glued to the tube, both becoming reclusive, agoraphobic and angry at a world, they refused to venture out into.

I have wasted too many  (depressed) hours, crippled with the inability to move physically, locked inside my mind.  These are the remnants of my old life, who I used to be. 

I am so busy, I fill days with adventures, with work, with chores, I keep myself busy because I feel like I have wasted enough of my life already.

So to relax, to have a day to myself, for myself is a day to be treasured. For I need to learn that these are important too that I am allowed down time… I need down time, or I burn out and sleep for a whole day, that’s not a pretty sight!

So here I am, writing to relax, pondering over how I can enjoy my day (guilt free) before my next adventure tomorrow morning…

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Anne Harrison 23.07.17

To Cast off the Chains of Doubt 

 

I have been using my writing a lot recently as some form of silent witness to my deepest secrets,  without breathing a word to unleash any such secrecy.

I am a Scorpio, we’re dreadfully private creatures.  I write,  but nought is often said.  My mind has been thrown into chaos,  thanks to some carefully spoken words and I feel the wall of security around my thoughts has been shattered.  I’m in an illusion that there is something wrong, when in reality,  I’m stronger than I have ever been.

I systemically analyse the troubles I believe haunt me and these are truly insignificant, by that I mean they’re either in the past or invented worst case scenarios…

Neither of which are worth my peace of mind!

Granted,  grief is a nasty little fella to comprehend. It is something I can mention,  but it is not something I can discuss nor elaborate upon. That will take time,  which I can respect.

Self care is something I had pushed aside, overwhelmed by my own self deprecation. This fictional ‘I’m not worthy’ that has been suffocating my good nature, its been festering,  growing with self doubt. Created by insecurities, fed through the lies I tell myself.

There is no point to this wallowing negativity!  Sure, I have bad days, we all have bad days… Bad days are there so we can see how clearly our good days ought to be treasured.  But bad days, should not manifest into bad weeks, bad months.  They are but fleeting in a life time, I say with honest hope…

I have been knocked back recently,  but I’m also my own worst enemy. Upon realisation,  I feel clouds lift, I feel clarity, for I know my way forth is by not stumbling into the past…

 

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Thank You for being there for me…

Anne Harrison 20.07.17

Note to Self 

I broke my own rules and let my emotions spill out onto Facebook.  I know, I see people every day do exactly this and each time I witness the support of their friends.

I try to refrain from doing so,  because of my own bloody stubborn mindedness.

Yesterday I might have broke my own rules,  but I also discovered the reality that people not only care,  but they also understand where I am coming from.

I’m not alone,  we do indeed all fight our own battles…  However it also helps to be kinder to myself too xx

 

Anne Harrison 20.07.17